I really didn't want to talk about this so soon on my blog... but after hearing the news about Lil Peep tonight it has me thinking.

This depression shit is no joke. Feeling like you're the only one even though you're surrounded by so many people who love you still doesn't work when your mind is constantly bringing you down into the darkest places you didn't even know about...

No one ever deserves to feel this alone.

I've struggled with depression and anxiety since high school. I was hospitalized for it. At the age of 16 the doctors prescribed me anti-depressants.

Luckily, I am able to cope with it... but there are still days when I want it to end.

People like me are constantly battling with themselves. Constant fighting between themselves and their my mind.

Yes, I still struggle with depression and anxiety but I still have found some of the light within my heart -- and I don't want anyone thinking "there is no hope" because there is and help is around. I'm not necessarily saying to go talk to therapists/psychiatrists (because I never did), I'm saying you should find an outlet that works for you and talk about it... via blog, in a notebook, etc. and realize you're not the only one who struggles with it... do what makes you happy. and understand that you will die one day and this is all you got.

Fall deeply in love with yourself. Take care of yourself. And do not let your mind control you.

Rest in peace Lil Peep, thank you for giving me the time to write this out to someone who may need it.

And to anyone struggling -- I'm here to talk or to listen.